let him be

Football.....It was hot! Wow, I was sweating and I didn't have a helmet, shoulder pads, etc... on. Football is not easy. I know that sounds like a joke, but I don't mean for Colton, I mean for me! I am talking about keeping up and cleaning all the equipment, etc.... it is a lot! Quite overwhelming to me:) The pads and helmet have to be aired out???? The pants shouldn't be washed after every practice???? Notice the question marks???? This is new to me! And Colton! So, we are excited! Colton has played soccer and baseball since he was two. Poor thing!! His mama thought it was the thing to do. Maybe the thing to do is wait and let them want to do something. What does Colton "want to do"? Well, gymnastics, boy scouts, karate...... maybe a break dancing class! I have to put myself in those places. It isn't about me. I HAVE to quit making it! I tell Colton all the time that he is the only one that can control what he does. I am the only one that can realize that Colton is not a mini version of what I want him to be. He is not necessarily the Three Letter Sport (you know.... Football, Basketball (or Wrestling), Baseball) A Honor Roll kid. Even though he has the FULL POTENTIAL to be that! He just might be the A Honor Roll, break-dancing kid:)!! Or................................. I just want to find out. Explore all options...... help not harm!! Please let him tell me one day that I did not harm! I helped! But............. I don't want to help by enabling. I can not enable. I can not force my will and wishes. I have to enforce structure and respect, but let this angel be who he is!